This blog is actually exactly one year old TODAY. woooooyeah! I never stuck with something for so long.

Happy one year annivarsary blog!

2004 was an OK year for me. Lots of ups, and lots of downs. Sad to admit that the downs outnumbered the ups but I can't complain. Looking forward to the next year - I'm expecting big things in 05...I'll be graduating. Finally!
I wonder where I'll be this time next year. I really don't know! That thought is scary and exciting at the same time. Wherever I am, I hope I'm happy, that's all that matters really.

Anyway, here's to a new year. Happy New Year everyone.

I can't believe what happened in southeast asia, it's so overwhelming. Every time I think about it I start to cry. I haven't lost any friends or family members but just the thought of how those people died...And I get just as emotional when I see the way that the world is responding, it makes me so proud! May Allah help us :(

You Are From Neptune

You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability. You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea. Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion. You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone. If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.

What Planet Are You From?

just happy I didn't get Uranus :p

"However long the night, the dawn will break."
~ African Proverb

My last exam is on Wednesday THANK GOODNESS! Things are going much better now compared to the last few weeks. I'm already prepared for Wednesday, so I guess I will just take it easy until then...

I'm so exhausted, sooo very exhausted...I don't think I can take this anymore. Physically, emotionally and (especially) mentally, I'm just worn out. Yes I know, school tends to stress us all out, but in my case it's just too much, I've had enough! I'm just counting the days until Christmas break.

I'll leave you with a quote that's really fitting for me these past couple of months...

"When you are at the end of your rope - tie a knot in it and hang on!"
~Eleanor Roosevelt

I don't know how much longer I can hang on :(

So I just woke up from the best sleep I had in months, ready to face the crapload of work I've gotta do and I look out the window and what do I see???? It fucking snowed! Daaammmn it! I can't go out, my dinky little converse shoes won't keep the snow out so I can't go out there.

so much for being productive today :( FUCK!

update: I'm thisclose to losin my mind!
Hopefully, I can make it to this Friday in one piece...Again, if ONLY I never got into this disease of procastinating, my life would be so much easier.
But ofcourse, I live to make everything harder for myself...

It feels so good when things finally start to go your way!

I swear, procrastination will be the death of me.

I just took this test for fun. It was a waste of time but I have a lot of time to waste, so it's all good.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Interesting results, considering that 'schizo' is one of my nicknames!

phheeeeeeew! I'm FREEEE (for a few weeks at least) yaaaay, so happy! But Ramadan is almost over, that sucks...

anyway, I'm very tired. very, very, very tired . But it's all good coz now I have time to chill and relax, you might say I have time to chillax :)

Too bad I still have that really strange feeling, I can't seem to shake it off...it's truly odd. I don't mean to sound morbid or anything, it's just...man, I don't know. I feel like something is going to happen soon, something BAD. Not necessarily to me, but something that will affect me very much.

moving on...

Winter's here, good news for me! I loves winter.

Bye.

something is bothering me...a lot! and I just can't figure out what it is. Don't know what's worse - the nervous knot in my stomach or not knowing what is causing it.

I'm feeling so inadequate and useless right now. I think I need a vacation, maybe I'm just exhausted...

hmmph, back to work

Oh yeah, I'm such an idiot! I forgot to say Ramadan Kareem to my family and Muslim friends! I love this month
.
What a perdy picture

Anyhoo, back to sulking...

I feel like I got run over by a really big bike.

f'ing hell, why am I still sick? I hate feeling like this, I'm hot and cold at the same time and I swear it feels like my internal organs are shivering. That can't be good,
I should take K's advice and go to a doctor. But dammit, I aint got no time! I have a midterm tomorrow and another one on Saturday. Hopefully I won't pass out until I'm done writing them. I don't care what happens after, just please let me get through these midterms! plllleeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaseee!

k, that's all.

I'm screwed, next week I'm going to be a mess, I know it.

I have a midterm on Tuesday, an essay due on Thursday, a midterm on Friday and another midterm on Saturday! The week after that I have 2 essays and a lab due...THEN I have to start writing my FOUR term papers which are due around the end of November....THEN I have a couple of weeks before finals start. omg, pray for me :(

I got this from a good friend...

Friendship:
friendship is like piss in your pants,
everyone can see it, but only you can feel it's true warmth.
so, thanks for being the piss on my pants.
pass it on, ass.

...I feel so special :P

Oh boy, shopping is so stressfull, I can't believe people do it for fun! I went to the eaton centre and oh my gosh, so tired afterwards...shopping is the ultimate energy zapping activity I think.

And my nose, it started bleeding this morning. I have a feeling it has to do with the huge headache I got from that mall...actually, it's unlikely that the two events are related, but who knows :P

I still need to find shoes, I think I'll put that off for a while, I can't go back yet!

I work well under pressure. Damn it I wish I didn't so that I could stop frickin' procrastinating.
I have an essay due at midnight....and I started writing it today...I rule.

My gmail account has been accumulating invites for a couple of months now, if you would like an invite, let me know! I feel like I'm wasting precious invites and denying my friends the pleasure of experiencing the 1GB goodness :P

wooo! my hair is growing back freakishly fast! very strange...

anyhoo, I just wanted to say that school is keeping me real busy and that I think I need to drop a course so that I can keep up with everything. That sucks b/c dropping this course could mean that I have to graduate next November instead of next May :(

Man, I'm such a loser, a never learning loser. dang. Repeating past mistakes over and over and over again.
What kind of dummy puts food in their backpack and forgets about it. Me! And I usually don't remember until a strange smell (which has now become all too familiar) starts emitting from there.
Case in point: Look here, here and here.
And now I can add a half-eaten, two-day old turkey pita to that list. yay.

Too much to do and so much information to take in! Dang, I hope my little head doesn't burst :(
Oh man, I really need to get better organized, so many assignments and crap.
Good thing I bought this nifty UofT organizer last week. Hopefully I'll get my shit together and I won't have to run around like a chicken with its head cut off when we have to start handing stuff in.

holy shit!!
I just spent the last week trying to get into this course called Project Management, and I finally get in only to find out that the course load is huuge! I don't know man, this course is really useful but still...

*EDIT* upon further inspection, I realized the course load wasn't that bad. I just got freaked out by the length of the syllabus.

I just wanted you guys to see this, it's kinda funny! I think I'd be a hybrid of the "hippies" and the "indie kids" in my outward appearance...but I'm probably mostly "punk" on the inside :P

I cut my hair real short yesterday, the hairdresser messed my hair up but I'm trying to make the best of it. It looks half-way decent so long as I mousse the hell out of it! Maybe I'll put a picture of it here?

Also, I really want to say thanks to my awesome, awesome friends. thanks so much for the calls, emails and cards! you guys rock :) and I'm so lucky to know such thoughtful people. Maybe next year, inshallah, I'll stop being so lazy and throw a big party or something? I finally hung out with Shiva, a friend whom I haven't seen or talked to in such a long time! Thanks for remembering, man I will definitely repay you in december ;)

it's my birthday today! :) I turn 23 today, wow I can't believe I'm 23, cool.

wow...just, wow.
I can't believe this happened...
so sad.

sweeeeet!
hard work pays off :)
I got my False Confessions and Algerian Civil War essays back...an A and a B+ (just a couple of points shy of an A-, but I'm not complaining!)

Not trying to show off if that's what you're thinking, i'm just proud :)

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aww, I wanted to be Crush :(

I disconnected my internet this weekend, mainly because I had a sneaking suspicion that my laptop is infected with a virus, and I'm not computer savvy enough to fix the problem.
That's OK though...I'll get to save some cash. school is starting soon you know and I have to pay a minimum of $2000 by the end of August or else the damn school will kick me out of my courses.
I really don't know what else to say, I haven't really done anything worth talking about, not that I ever do, but you know what I mean.

I feel really odd, I've been sitting here for a while just trying to think of something to do!

I had an exam yesterday...man I kicked some major ass on that test. Work related stuff is starting to wind down too, although I know it will get busy again in the coming weeks :(

so yeah, I'm desperately trying to busy myself a little. it's a really funny feeling, not having to rush around and scramble to get things done. makes me feel all fuzzy inside and a little giddy. giddy, what a strange word.

on a side note: ooooooh, it's friday the 13th, booga wooga! you know what's funny? Montreal buildings have floor 13, I've never ever in my life seen a floor 13, ever.

montreal was sooo, sooo, sooooooooooooooo much fun! I think that should be my home :)

sleepy time.

I just have ONE more assignment to do! then I'm DONE for the summer, no more essays! no more assignments!
I'm leaving tomorrow afternoon for Montreal, man I need a vacation so bad. even though it's kind of at a bad time, it'll be worth it. OK, must finish off the last bits of this assignments...

Look at this, it's so freaky!
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/mindprobe.html

I'm one sick puppy, I think I'm addicted to procrastinating...maybe I get a high out of it or something, dang, I'm so lame. is there a support group I can join?

Anyways, this past week's events:

1. nearly became lost my sanity, I finished two major essays just minutes before they were due

2. got pickpocketed in the bus, my wallet with EVERYTHING in it (except my credit cards, phew!) is gone. damn you bastardo, I hope you die a slow and painful death

3. found out I got a job at Mount Sinai for the coming school year (score!)

4. Last week for most of my classes, thank goodness.

5. now, scrambling to finish last assignments before thursday so that I may go to montreal to visity my good buddy

will I finish the assignments on time? I believe I can, just gotta keep cheering myself on...you can do it, I have faith in you!

omg, the weirdest thing is happening right now as I type this. this has to be the strangest thing i've ever witnessed, oh man! outside my kitchen window, oh wow. this is so strange!
I don't know if I can do it justice by even trying to describeit. I wish, WISH I had a video camera.
gosh, it's still there!

So, I'm at the library. Studying and stuff, just wanted to mention how anal Robarts library staff are...

Posted inside each computer workspace (and there are hundreds... maybe thousands? no, not really,) is a white page that says:

"NO FOOD!
NO DRINKS
(including water)!
NO CELL PHONES!"

Including water? Monsters!

Anyhoo, in completely unrelated news, I'm screwed.

Change of plans...no London this weekend, too bad! But it's OK, another time guys!
I think I'll take my younger brothers to Wonderland this Saturday instead.

I just found out blogger has colours! Cool.

Two tests are out of my way, yeah! Now I can concentrate on my assignments and essays.

Guess who's going to London next long weekend? And who's going to Montereal the weekend after that? Come on, guess!

.............ME! yay, can't wait.  Oh yeah. After all this hard work, I sure as hell deserve a little break...just counting down the days now...

hmph.

writer's block.

hey! come on friends, throw me a bone, you know I'd help you if you asked me to. if you know any interesting stuff about the Algerian civil war, structural adjustment programs or false confessions, let me know eh?
thanks!

BREAKTHROUGH!!
 
Finally! Jeez, how long does it take to get an idea?
 
I'm writing an essay on the Algerian civil war and I've been sitting here since 1 trying to get some sort of idea on how I should approach the topic. 
 
I was drawing a blank for the longest time until out of nowhere (BAM!) ideas came rushing to my head. Just like that. Anyways, I've managed to make a decent outline for it. I can't wait to see how it turns out.
 
k that's all, back to work.

Fuckshit fuckshit fuckshit fuckshit!
 
I'm in a bad mood.
 
I lost my watch.  Actually, it was stolen. 
 
this is for the loser with the sticky fingers

One assignment down...and 3 assignments, 2 essays, 2 tests and 2 exams to go.

yeah!

It's that time again!!

I'm getting bumrushed with schoolwork!!!

Assignments and tests and essays...(OH MY!)

WHY OH WHY DO THEY DO THIS TO US! DON'T THEY HAVE A CONSCIOUS?? FOR THE SAKE OF ALL THAT'S GOOD, GIVE ME A BREAK..PLEAAEEASE!

Nevermind, I'm going to make it. I'll be OK...I'll be OK...I'm going to make it...

excuse me while I go whimper in the corner...

my new favourite site!
Rock, Paper, Saddam!

YIKES!

This morning I found a rotten bannana in my backpack...so rotten that it was runny and nearly liquified.

gross

I should really try to be more observant.

What do you do when you see your friend's boyfriend hanging around some other girl and is being a little too friendly with her...

Me I do nothing - I hide and pretend I didn't see them. Wow, I'm such a great friend.

Today was a weird day, that's all for now.

one more thing, it's almost 10 on a Saturday and there are so many students in the computer labs working away...haha suckers!

oh wait, I'm in here too. shit.

assignments, assignments, assignments...I'm up to my neck in assignments (been working on one since noon today!)

That's what I get for going to summer school.

Anyhoo, I have an interview with Mt Sinai this Monday for a job during the school year...wish me luck!

wow...so tired I am! just came from the beach where I've been since early this morning. It didn't rain thank goodness. Damn food vendors should be arrested, since when does bottled water cost 2 bucks?? It was a lot of fun though, I made some new friends, ran into some old ones, yeah it was good times. I kinda screwed up b/c my stereo didn't work so we didn't have music, ah well!
I'm so tired, volleyball is hard and it should not be played by someone as out of shape as me!

Going to try and catch some fireworks later tonight, maybe drive to Wonderland? we'll see.

Happy Canada Day!

yum yum yum yum
yum yum yum yum
yum yum yum yum
yum yum yum yum...

oh yeah! go liberals! go liberals! shake your booty, it's your birthday!

take that you right-wing scum! in your face! in your face!

suckers.

So, my friend and I planned on seeing a movie yesterday but due to bad time management we were still nowhere near the theatre when the last showing started. Ah well, there was nothing worth seeing anyway. We just ended up going to Under the Sun (featured here for having the best desserts...it's so true.) I had their delicious delicious cheescake...my mouth is watering just thinking about that cheescake...

Anyhoo, enought about that. I'm in school for the whole day today, got a major test on Tuesday. Must do well, this test is worth a lot you know. Yeah, so hopefully I'll do well on this test (and by 'well' I mean I won't fail).
I passed by the grocery store and picked up some frozen dinners before coming to school, nothing here is open on Sundays you see. It's a good thing I did that, otherwise I would have had to eat chocolate bars and chips for lunch and dinner.

Alright, breaktime's over, gotta bet back...my notes are calling me.

OH MY ...

See, it's stuff like this that makes me never want to leave my house.

Dammit! I became addicted to Tim Horton ice caps and timbits! Not good...not good at all.

I have an assginment due tomorrow and I haven't started it yet. yeah, go me! Dang, I really should use some sort of negative reinforcement on myslef every time I try to procrastinate...I should give myself a mild shock any time I even think of putting off any work.

Must get back to work now.

Awww...we were this close to going to Wonderland tommorrow. THIS close!
Ah well, there's always next weekend.

Hey! I just wanted to say that Derek Lee just came to my house. Yeah, and we talked for a little bit about the elections and stuff then he shook my hand and then he and his entourage left to go knock on the next house, I thought that was really cool. I've never talked to a politician before.
Anyway, I'm definitely voting for the Liberals next week...would've liked to vote NDP or Green but those damned Conservatives are stressing me out. If they win...dang, I don't even want to think of the possibility of those freakshows running the country.

Before I go I'd like to ask, what the hell kind of human being puts relish on their banana??

Damn! I think it must be mating season or something...there are like 20 million birds in the neighbourhood singing loudly and incessantly. Some birds sound regular but there are quite a few that sound so strange. One bird sounds like it's laughing and there's one that sounds like it's whistling, really cute.
There are a couple real annoying ones thought, and being the lucky person I am, the most annoying bird happens to be living in the tree next to my window. yay. And if that wasn't bad enough, this stupid bird starts singing at 4 in the morning! And it doesn't stop. I'm used to it now, so it's not so bad.

This weekend, I learned never to try and set up friends. No matter how perfect I think they are for each other. Too much hassle man and it ain't worth it.

What else? Hey, I'm going to Montreal (or as the Frenchies say it, "Morrealle") My friend will be there for two months this summer hoping to learn a little French. I'm thinking she won't come back fluent, but at least she'll know a little more than she does now (which is nothing!)

My summer is going well so far. Suprisingely, I'm enjoying all my classes...I'm pretty sure I'll do well in all of them. I got a cool job with the Humanities and Social Science co-op office at school. It's pretty much the same thing I've done during the school year when it was just the Arts Management c-op, except that I'll have a few more responsibilites but it's all good. I'm enjoying it.

there's this thing in the back-left side of my throat that's so swollen. When I swallow it feels like I'm crushing it and it hurts so much. I can't even turn left without feeling it move, and don't even ask about eating, I've been surviving on yogurt and liquid. I thought trying to eat scrambled eggs would be OK...big mistake!
that sounds pretty bad doesn't it? this started yesterday and I was hoping it would get better but it's only gotten worse. yeah, I think I should make an appointment.

I really want to see Hairspray. I've never been to a musical before, I've never wanted to, but this show sounds fun!

It's been a really hot week, I keep forgetting how sluggish hot weather makes me...summer is really my least favourite season. Damn summer, damn it to hell. Hm, if I could, I'd move to the northern most part of Canada just to avoid this nasty heat.

it's too bloody hot!
something so weird happened this morning, I got a call from someone who wanted to know if I was interested in trying to get a summer job in Ottawa with Health Canada as a research assistant. dang! if they asked me that two months ago, I would've said 'hell yeah!"
but I don't feel like going to Ottawa anymore...
I hate summer, I really do. I'd rather have winter year round dammit.
I have a class in ten minutes and I need to find out the room number so I think I should go and do that.

My laptop is still acting screwy so I'm using the computer lab in school. They need to turn down the a/c in here man!
anyhoo, I had my very first summer class today. It looks like it'll be interesting and a little bit challenging, but I'm looking forward to. I'm so pumped about starting classes again! I would never have said that three weeks ago. the break was so relaxing and I'm so energized...plus the fact that all my final marks rock got me really motivated to do just as well this summer the B- in econ was my lowest mark!

oh yeah, I got a cool email from Environment Canada asking if I was interested in a summer position. that would be amazing but it's really going to screw up my plans! Dilemma! On one hand, I have really cool classes this summer that I know I can do really well in (and I have to take them to graduate on time.) But on the other, this would be an awesome opportunity to get some actual career related experience...and the pay is very pleasing. Also, I'd only have to give up two classes coz the rest are night classes...
I'm not worrying too much about it though b/c I doubt I'm going to get it anyway. It sounds really competitive. Plus they're looking for 'advanced students' from third year to master's who are studying environmental sciences. (i'm only minoring in it, so i'm not like an expert or anything.)
The position is called atmospheric change communications officer. It's kind of funny because I was hired by my school's arts management program as a communications assistant this past school year, and I'm comfertable with climate change issues (i took classes and went to seminars on the topic) so maybe I DO have a chance? We'll see...

wow this lab is freezing, I'm going to go now...

something is very wrong with my laptop, I think that sasser thing has something to do with it. stupid computer people making stupid viruses and things...why don't they go and do something productive huh?

WOW!!
I got a final mark of B- in economics...B- ...in ECONOMICS! Good stuff, studying DOES work! Also, I got a very interesting call today that might disrupt my summer plans a little, in a good way though. Won't talk more about this cool thing for fear that I might jinx anything.

What the hell was with the Leafs game last night?! We were SLAUGHTERED! Holy crap at one point, I could swear that the game was fixed...it's like the leafs were just handing the puck over to the stupid flyers.
Whatever. Why I'm getting so riled up about this is beyond me. I actually don't really care who wins the stupid cup. I think I'm just getting caught up in all the excitement. Every second car has a Leafs flag stuck to it right now. This excitement is very contagious, like SARS. Hey remember SARS, that was a hoot.

Well, I finally got around to doing my laundery and cleaning my room this weekend, everything is shiny and bright again. I'm going to go now and try to busy myself with something trivial. Maybe I'll try to find a part-time job. But considering that I'm taking so many classes this summer, I don't think working is such a good idea...
anyhoo, 'talk' to you later!

Today is thursday...which means tomorrow's Friday...which means it's been a WEEK since I lifted a finger to do anything. I can honestly say I've never had such an idle week since the summer of 2002 (after the first year of uni.) I'm getting kind of restless actually and BORED. I almost wish I acted on my cousin's offer to visit her in Grand Rapids.
I can't believe how relaxed I am and I can't believe that I'm complaining about my idleness. I suppose I should shut it and enjoy this while it lasts, coz with the four classes I'm taking this summer, the five I'm taking next fall, the other five I'm taking next winter and the two I'm taking NEXT summer...I'm not going to have much of a break until next July at the earliest! Damn it, I'm starting to hate school so much.

I ran into an old boss today at the bank, man that was a really long line. I must have been in there for thirty minutes!


It's Goldie's birthday tomorrow! Happy birthday

whoa, my window's open and I can totally tell that a skunk just passed major gas. I like skunks, they're very cute creatures. The poor critters get a bad rep just 'cause they smell a little funky but it's not their fault!! Hehe I just remembered the time my sister was chased by one...it was a tiny little thing but I've never seen my sister run so fast! I was almost wishing that it caught up to her.

Man, doing nothing isn't all that I thought it was. I'm a little bit on the bored side, and I never knew that boredom could actually be physically tiring. I'm aching everywhere from doing nothing.
I got so lazy that I skipped an appointment today, and I'm thinking about postponing another appointment that I have tomorrow...this is not good, not good at all.
Another sign that I need to busy myself a little - I learned cool new dance routines from kozo and spidey...I memorized all the steps and the words. It took a while but I did it. Spiderman took longer 'cause it moved so fast and the song was in Spanish or something but I eventually learned it. It would've been A LOT easier if I wasn't being mocked by people but I can't expect them to understand...they said something about me being obsessed but I think it's more determination than anything.

Quizzes!!!!

As you can see, I'm mucho bored

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Wow. I'm all done! I can't believe it, this is amazing. I think I did alright on my exams, I did better than I thought I would, so that's good.
What am I going to do with myself now that I've got all this free time? I think I should start tending to some negleted friendships, so that'll be my first mission. Second, I gotta take some serious care of ME, hmm maybe I'll go to a spa. I definitely need to take care of the feet situation before summer comes. I can safely claim to have the ugliest feet this side of the Atlantic! seriously, not even joking! they're not brown like the rest of me, they're sort of greyish, sometimes they have a purple tinge to them. It could be due to the fact that I NEVER, EVER take off my socks, ever. so maybe they're lacking in oxygen or something? I've been meaning to see a doctor about my health problems, but I'm really paranoid so I doubt anything is wrong. But I'll see one just in case.
Wait a minute, I think I should switch the order on that, but I'm too lazy to cut and paste...so for the record I'm going to take care of me first, THEN I will attempt to mend some friendships.

I need to go shopping too that's for sure, I'm so out of the loop that it's not even funny...I haven't been shopping (for clothes) since September! And it's not like I even CARE about fashion or being in style (whatever that is) but at least I used to have an idea of what the hell was going on. I'm so scared that I'll turn into one of those people who look like they just time-warped from another decade, you know who I mean...those people who still wear tapered acid-wash jeans with huge white sneakers like it was still the eighties. I sat next to one on the bus last November, and the whole time I was thinking "why?"
ohh, that's so wrong of me, I shouldn't think like that. Everyone has different taste...so what if he wanted to wear a brightly coloured blazer and roll it up at the sleeves, that's none of my damn business right?

ookay, I think I've blabbed long enough...just putting to use extra adrenaline left over from the English exam (which was really intense by the way.) Gonna go home now and get some sleeeeeeep! AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH I'M SO EXCITED!!!!

woooo, it's almost showtime! I been studying non-stop for days, my exams start tommorow morning at 9 and I won't be done until noon Friday. Then I'm REALLY free...for a couple weeks at least, until I start summer school.

wow, I can't WAIT until Friday. K gotta get rested, don't wanna fall asleep during the exams now

by the way, go leafs go

This goes out to the dicks that invented exams. If I ever find you...

I accomplished a lot today. Among other things, I can calculate the GDP, NDI and equilibrium income. I can find out Aggregate Expediture and I can graph it as well. I can figure out the monely supply using different scenarios, like if the Bank of Canada sells bonds or buys bonds or if it lends money to chartered banks, etc.. And I understand why it reduces interest rates so that we can avoid an economic recession.

See! I told ya I did a lot. Sadly I still have a BUNCH of other things to figure out, and other classes to study for...like my anthro class on the "middle east', and my english class on cinema and modernity. I'm gonna have to tackle those next week.

Hey! old school OLP on the radio...sure brings back memories of grades 9 and 10 in Ottawa, those were the days. I miss Woodroffe...man, I loved that school! Hands down it was the best highschool. Better than Winston Churchill, better than Wexford and waayy better than Dunbarton. Dang I hated dunbarton, that wasn't a highschool, I don't know what it was. Pickering sucks. No offence to any Pickering folk (Sanjay and Nat) So that's the lesson for today...Ottawa: grrreat, Pickering: shit. and Scarborough/Toronto is somewhere in between.

Oh man! I meant to tell you about my wonderful and strange dream but I lost most of the details. I don't remember a whole lot, what I do remember is that it was similar to Dawn of the Dead and 28 Days Later.
In the dream I spent most of the time running around and curing zombies by putting this magical necklace around thier necks. I ran around my school, my neighbourhood, I was even on the beach for a while. Then I had to run to the mall to buy more of those magical necklaces, but then I was trapped in the mall and I couldn't get out, so I had to wait for the zombies to come IN to the mall before I could cure them. Pretty soon the mall was packed with cured people (most of them looked very much like my family and friends) and we indulged in the mall's goodies and partied like it was 1999! But not for long because bad things started happening. Dang, I would've liked to tell you more, it was such a sweet dream. ah well...

By the way what's up with this Robinson guy eh...what a psycho, too bad about that though, he was cool.

Damn, I love this hippo



...ANYHOO!...

What did I do today you ask?

NOTHING!!! mmhm I love saying that..

I.
did.
nothing.

Beautiful!

OK, here's the deal

1. My mom went thru the colonoscopy procedure yesterday...hoping the doctors call us back only with good news
2. I JUST handed in the last paper, I swear, procrastination is going to be the death of me
and
3. I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! HEHHEHHEHEHEHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Dang I'm so giddy, can't believe another year of uni is OVER! I just have three exams the last week of April. I'll start studying for them sometime next week. Right now, I'm going to catch up on some much needed rest.

Before I go though, let me explain Friday's post...you see, I think I might have gone temporarily insane. it was most likely caused by sleep deprivation. but i'm ok now. really.

wow.

wow wow wow wow wow.

that's all I have to say

I just came from a workshop on climate change organized by the Canadian Labour Congress. It's a two-day thing and it ends tomorrow at 5. There were some nice and very interesting people there, and a couple weird ones too. There was this one guy who seemed like he was high on something. He was like one of those stereotypical tree-hugging/hippie type characters. And the way he talked...you'd think this was from the 70s or something. From what I saw, I believe he might be mildly insane.

On the way back I ran into Sanjay...Hi Sanjay! It's been AGES! Good to see you friend, you looked great and Ricardo (oooh I hope the name is right! Me not good with names) was really nice.

Before I go, I just want to disgust you a little bit. I just picked at my eyebrow piercing and a scab about the same size as the barbell fell off! Yummy!

Bummer. My eyebrow is infected. I believe it's because I keep rubbing it, I think I should stop that. What a waste of a day today was, I have two huge essays due and I didn't lift a finger to start either one. I think I need professional help. Is there such a thing as 'Procrastinators Anonymous'? I would so go to one of their meetings.

On a brighter note, I did well on my midterm. I didn't ace it but I came close. 78!!

I rule.

I just finished watching the original Dawn of the Dead. All I can say is gross. so much gore and blood, but it was kind of funny because everything looked so fake! The 'blood' looked nothing like real blood. And since when is flesh so soft and spongy that humans can take a bite out of it like they were taking a bite out of a sandwich.
I think I should see the new one. I heard the running zombies were cool. I love running zombies, so much more scarier than ones that drag their feet.

So I saw that, and yesterday I saw American Psycho. I'm watching these movies for my Cinema and Modernity class. I have to write an essay about these movies you see. Usually I wouldn't watch these types of movies but I have no choice. I'm supposed to choose between watching horror, romance or science-fiction...I have a very strong gag reflex, so romance was out of the question, and I just don't 'get' science fiction type movies. Maybe I'm not smart enough or something, I don't know. So, it was horror by default.

By the way, this week I made my very first DVD purchase. I don't have a DVD player but I have a laptop that can play DVDs, so I don't plan on getting one. I was really hoping I could avoid those stupid things but...
ah well. I can't believe that my beloved VHS is becoming obsolete right before my eyes. Reminds me of my ordeal with the whole CD thing back in high school. I was one of those people that was stuck to cassettes, I hated the CD when it first came out, 'cause it meant I had to get a CD player. But then I had no choice but to buy them because the stores stopped carrying them! blah

SWEEEET! EXTENTION!! WOHOOOO!!!!

Test...ECONOMICS(!!!!!!!!!!!!!) ONE hour! GRPPSHKESGGLESE

oi.

EWWW. have you ever found a smushed rotten peach in your bag?
I have! So fun!

Right now I'm half watching cbc's the passionate eye...i love it. But it's so sad tonight, oh man I almost cried...ok fine I did cry. just a little. Tonight's documentary was called "a Tale of Two Alis." I almost wish I didn't see it. I feel so stupid...Here I am worrying about things that are so fucking trivial while these kids are being orphaned and mutilated.

I wonder how those inhuman bastards sleep at night knowing what they're putting innocent people through. Shit! I wish I could just snap my fingers and wipe them off this planet. I hate them, I more than hate them. If there's a stronger word than hate then that's what I'm feeling right now. Hell, I've had too much reality for one night, must go listen to some music and stop myself thinking crazy thoughts.

(One more thing, rough cuts on cbc is airing another documentary about the iraq war this Thursday and next Sat. Watch it, it will probably be just as sad and tragic.)

I just got this from K. it made me feel so much better...I bet that it'll make you feel better too!

"One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally he decided the animal was old and the well needed to be covered up anyway, it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey. He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well.
At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement, he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well and was astonished at what he saw.

With every shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off!"

Just came from economics...Aye! I don't like economics at all, in fact I hate it!
I wish I could videotape myself during the lectures. According to a classmate I have the strangest expressions in that class...They say it's almost as if I'm asleep with my eyes open. Hell I want to see that!
I catch myself sometimes, I could feel that my face is doing strange things. For example, I might all of the sudden notice that my eyes are open really wide and I have to bring them back to normal size. More often though it's my mouth that's doing strange things, it'll be hanging open and completely slack. Dang I must look braindead to the prof!

Revenue Canada...thank you for making my day. Today you're my best friend. That big, fat cheque you sent me today came just in time. (I needed to pay some bills) I'm so grateful to get that money. Granted the money was mine in the first place and you're just returning what you took from me, but whatever.

Now I can clear up my school account and I can pay the rest to the immoral filthy, bloodsuckers otherwise known as mastercard and visa.

Just a bunch of random things in my mind right now...me too tired to think right now.
1. I'm sick and tired of all the stupid crap going on in this world.
2. I'm amazingly ignorant sometimes...sorry D.
3. I feel better about things
4. The most awesome looking songbird in the world sings to me evey morning when I leave my house
5. I have the biggest, baddest papercut
6. I can't wait to go to Australia
7. Mike Bullard SUCKS.
8. I'm watching the cutest commercial ever made
9. Pizza makes you really, really thirsty.
10. Global has lame sports anchors.
11. My teeth hurt
12. I don't hate my job.
13. I need to go shopping.
14. Pepsi is much better than Coke.
15. The poor car is dead. Didn't survive the damn January weather!


Some things to ponder...
What was M.C. Hammer thinking when he wore those pants?
Why is hockey so violent??
Why can't I sleep even when I'm REALLY tired?
Why is Scarborough being taken over by retarded gangs...."varasace boys" and "markham boys"?! Holy shit, give me a fucking break! I hope I don't get shot. But they way things are going, I probably will be.

I got this email from Sonya, I like it! Don't know if it's all true but who cares....

SO, WHAT DO CANADIANS HAVE TO BE PROUD OF?
1. Smarties
2. Crispy Crunch, Coffee Crisp
3. The size of our footballs fields and one less down
4. Baseball is Canadian
5. Lacrosse is Canadian
6. Hockey is Canadian
7. Basketball is Canadian
8. Apple pie is Canadian
9. Mr. Dress-up kicks Mr. Rogers ass
10. Tim Hortons kicks Dunkin' Donuts ass
11. In the war of 1812, started by America, Canadians pushed the Americans back...past their 'White House'. Then we burned it...and most of Washington, under the command of William Lyon MaKenzie King who was insane and hammered all the time. We got bored because they ran away, so we came home and partied...Go figure..
12. Canada has the largest French population that never surrendered to Germany.
13. We have the largest English population that never ever surrendered or withdrew during any war to anyone. anywhere. EVER.
14. Our civil war was fought in a bar and it lasted a little over an hour.
15. The only person who was arrested in our civil war was an American mercenary, who slept in and missed the whole thing... but showed up just in time to get caught.
16. We knew plaid was cool far before Seattle caught on.
17. The Hudsons Bay Company once owned over 10% of the earth's surface and is still around as the worlds oldest company .
18. The average dog sled team can kill and devour a full grown human in under 3 minutes.
19. We still know what to do with all the parts of a buffalo.
20. We don't marry our kin-folk.
21. We invented ski-doos, jet-skis, velcro, zippers, insulin, penicillin, zambonis, the telephone and short wave radios that have countless lives each year.
22. We ALL have frozen our tongues to something metal and lived to tell about it.
23. A Canadian invented Superman.
24. We have colured money.
25. Our beer advertisments kick ass

BUT MOST IMPORTANT!

24. The handles on our beer cases are big enough to fit your hands with mitts on. OOOoohhhhh Canada!!
25. And we don't bomb our allies.

This quiz is too funny, probably the most entertaining quiz I've ever taken!






What Type of Villain are You?

mutedfaith.com.

Today I broke my Radiohead CD, not intentionally obviously...that sort of sucked.

um...what else? uh yeah, that's pretty much it right now.

One more thing...strawberry creamcheese RULES!

k bye!

This is pretty accurate I would say..even the bit about my 'frequent bouts of neurosis." I sometimes think I'm losing it. I tend to behave like someone who is obsessive-compulsive. For example, I always sit in the same seat in my classes...if I don't, I freak out silently for about ten minutes. But then I'm OK. So I'm not really THAT crazy.

Amal thinks I am though. In fact, she told me to seek professional help and that she would refer me to a really good shrink. Um..I think I won't take you up on that offer. But thanks for your concern!!


You are Schroeder!


Which Peanuts Character are You?
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P.S. I feel good about the test I wrote today. I didn't have to resort to vomiting on my midterm. It's definitely a solid 'C'.

Here's a cool thing I got in the email once...THINGS TO DO IN THE EXAM IF YOU'RE GOING TO FAIL ANYWAY:

1. As soon as the instructor hands you the exam, eat it.
2. Turn in the exam approx. 30 min. into it. As you walk out, start commenting on how easy it was.
3. Get the exam. 20 min into it, throw your papers down violently, scream out "Fuck this!" and walk out triumphantly.
4. Comment on how sexy the instructor is looking that day.
5. Try to get people in the room to do a wave.
6. Puke into your exam booklet. Hand it in. Leave.
7. Walk in, get the exam, sit down. About 5 min into it, loudly say to the instructor, "I don't understand ANY of this. I've been to every lecture all semester long! What's the deal? And who the hell are you? Where's the regular guy?"
8. From the moment the exam begins, hum the theme to Jeopardy. Ignore the instructor's requests for you to stop. When they finally get you to leave one way or another, begin whistling the theme to the Bridge on the River Kwai.

I'm seriously considering doing one of these in the economics midterm.

Back to my "studying" (no sleep for me tonight.) And good luck to everyone battling with nasty midterms

the title goes here!

Hehe! Me so smart, just figured out how to add titles!

I've been studying for economics since 2. I think I overdid it a little, but I'm so unprepared for tomorrow's midterm! My brain hurts...i'm so tired; but I'm not sleepy. I'm just so tired of studying all the time. Thats all I do. And I don't even do it that well...I don't even know why I got accepted in to university. Really, I'm not that bright. I'm one lucky girl! Someone screwed up bad when they let me in!
I need a vacation. And I need to leave soon before I go on a rampage and start burning every book in sight.

Since last weekend I've been house-sitting this guy's place...it's not really a 'house'...just a basement apartment, but anyhow, that's not the point of my story. The main thing he asked me to do was to make sure that the fat cat of his didn't starve to death. I'm not a cat person so I wasn't too happy about that but I agreed to do it anyways.

I was down there a couple of nights ago to refill its food and water. I kind of felt sorry for it because it's been alone for several days and I thought that it had to be bored out of its mind.
I was debating whether or not I should bring out its toys and entertain it for a little while when it did the weirdest thing in the world! It WINKED at me! The cat winked at me. I swear it did! Nobody believes me, but why would I imagine a thing like that?? Then it did something else that made me vow never to touch another cat for as long as I live.

This guy has the creepiest cat in the world! Creepy and something else too. I don't wanna say what the 'something else' is because it's just too weird.

one more thing...cats are strange creatures. that is all.

Um, work was pretty rough today...I spent approx. 5 hours putting brochures in folders, putting those folders and letters into envelopes and finally, labeling those envelopes. So much paper everywhere. I have like ten papercuts on each finger.

Another thing, the damn library has been on my ass for a week. Something about me owing them money for some books I returned ages ago. Maybe I should go and try to straighten this out before they start taking away my 'borrowing privilages'. But I'm never good at dealing with these things...I apologize in advance incase I assault a library worker tomorrow. I'm just kidding. I would never do that.

There was something else that pissed me off today, but I can't remember what it was at the moment, dang I really wanted to write about it. goodnight.

Bummer...No Ottawa for me this summer. Looks like I'll be going to summer school, like I had originally planned.

Rejection sucks! But at least they were nice about it.

I took this test hoping to get some really cool animal, maybe a horse...but noooo I'm a big, fat, lazy BEAR! Aww isn't it so cute though?


What Is Your Animal Personality?
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Man, what a day. whataday, whataday!
I went to the Ontario Ministry of Environment as part of my extern career exploration program placement (i.e. fancy way of saying job-shadowing.)
Basically all I did was follow around this person nodding and smiling the whole time while interjecting "really?", "wow!" and "that's so informative!" at proper intervals.
And I don't think I've ever said "nice to meet you!" so many times in one day. ohh my poor little face is so sore from all the smiling...
It was tiring but I'm so glad I took part in the program. Honestly, it was an eye opening experience, and I learned A LOT! It was definitely worth it.

Oh yes, on the way back I also ran into a dear old friend of mine from grade 12. Hi Afroza!! And N. I'll call you tomorrow, I'm beat!

oh dear...I think I need to throw up.

what the hell kind of idiot am I?? I swear, something is wrong with me. shit.

Well, remember those two classes I 'dropped'? Even though I decided to drop them and stopped going all together, I didn't officially do it until this morning. (I thought I had to drop before the 15th to get 50% of the money I paid for the course.) WELL!! Turns out that I should've dropped before the 9th if I wanted to get my money back! And the tragic thing is that I had decided to drop these classes well before that date! So I could've got half of my fucking money back!!! AHHHHHHH!!!

So now, I drop these two classes and I lose 800 bucks in the process, instead of the 400 I would've lost if I read the damn paper right and dropped before the fucking stupid deadline!

Excuse me while I go break something...

I'm thinking of buying tickets to see A Perfect Cirlce in April. hmmm

Dang....dangdangdangdangDANG. I completely fucked up the interview...what a perfect way to end the perfect week. People say I'm overexaggerating. I felt the same way last summer too. I thought I ruined my interview with hrcc-s, but they ended up calling me....so I still sort of have a chance, but I really, really doubt it.

And those stupid 'tips' were fucking useless.

That's it, I won't say anything more about this job. I'll pretend they didn't even call me last week...I'll be like "National what Commission??? What the f is that?"

TGIF!!! This was the week from hell. Too many things to do and not enough time. and thank goodness I have self control b/c I was thisclose to dropping 2 courses and quitting work the last couple of days.

ohhh my interview is today...so nervous. I went on the net to get phone interview advice and I found some good tips that make so much sense but would never have thought of...

stand - 'cause your voice sounds stronger when you stand
smile - communicates enthusiasm and friendliness
don't have too many 'um' 'uhh' moments because they're amplified over the phone
and dress as you would for a regular interview...makes you sound more professional (versus doing the interview in your jammies...which was what I had planned to do!)

me so tired...me so very, very tired *sigh*

Today I decided enough is enough! I dropped Climatology...I know you think I'm crazy Rikta...and I probably am a little bit, but I'd rather be crazy and rested than crazy and exhausted/worn out.

I was taking too many damn classes anyway, something had to go. And it wasn't going to be my sanity so it might as well be Clima-fucking-tology. All I have to say is GOODBYE and GOOD RIDDANCE.

I have an interview this Friday. And it's a telephone interview. I've never had one of those before...I can't wait. Oh man, I'm so giddy!!

Also, I got another call from this place I applied to last semester. With the Canadian Forces...they're recruiting and want me to attend an info session this Thursday...I wonder if I should call back? Nah, I've got economics anyway, so I couldn't go even if I wanted to

I really need to get back to studying now

Told myself I wouldn't blog until I finished my work and caught up with the reading but I just had to do it. THEY CALLED ME. THEY CALLED ME. THEY CALLED ME!!!!!!!

I couldn't believe it! I still have to call them back but I'm pretty optimisitic about it, they sounded pretty cheery on the message.

Oh man, if I get this....

people wish me luck, pray for me...do ANYTHING! Please let me get that job.

P.S. the weird dreams are still coming

I just woke up from one of the most bizzare and terrifying nightmares I've ever had...I woke up completely horrified and sick to my stomach. Without going into too much detail, it involved torture and lots of gore and blood curdling screams of pain. Also for some reason, Tim Horton's was in there briefly...they were using paper bags from Timmy's to hold the organs and body parts...

All I'll say is that I don't want to sleep again for a very, very long time.

Oh man, I hit the motherload!

Just came back from an event downtown put together by the Ethiopian students association at UofT. Hayat A. (the Ethiopian one, not the Somali one) asked me to come, and I must say I'm glad I did! It was a lot of fun and I met some cool people!

And don't even get me started about the food! I'm drooling just thinking about it...

In other news, I paid my credit card today...$700 big ones! And I still have another one to tackle...next paycheck I'll take care of it. And I still owe my school $500. Man...I HAVE to get that job!

Oh yeah, my twitchy eye problem came back. I think it's 'cause I got so much to do and I'm not doing anything about it. But when I get stressed like this, I become useless and twitchy and I sweat all over the place.

This weekend I HAVE to get my shit together or I swear I'm going to flunk out this semster...
-Two proposals, one is 5% of the final mark and the other is 20%. I have to at least start them this weekend...
-A midterm in climatology. the class is hard as hell, but thank goodness for the cool professor. Gotta study and review
-A quiz in cinema and modernity...I don't think I could really study for that one. I either know it or I don't. Just have to make sure I finish the readings...

Hopefully I'll get most of this done or at least started. But if my past weekends are any indication, I'll be suprised if I even touch a book.

I have an economics quiz in one and a half hour. And of course, me being the stupid and lazy person that I am, didn't even bother to study...Actually that's not true, I'm not lazy, I've just been really, really busy this week.

Also, the fact that the prof always drops the lowest mark had a part to play. I'll study for the next two...

Crap, if I know I'm going to fail, should I even go?

I called the people back between classes and I talked to them for a while today. They explained the position to me (it was "environmental bla bla officer") It sounded pretty interesting, like something I'd enjoy doing.

I still don't have a clear idea of what I want to do after I get my degree, but recently, a lot of opportunities in the environmental sector have been coming at me. Like during reading week in Feb, I'm getting the chance to jobshadow this person who works in environmental policy at Ontario's Ministery of Environment.

I'm going to email them my resume tomorrow...wish me luck! Actually, I'm not going to hold my breath for this one b/c I think they'd perfer someone who is bilingual, and I'm not bilingual. But it doesn't hurt to try...

I came home from school/work and was surprised to find that someone called me from the National Capital Commision in Ottawa! They wanted to interview me for a position this summer. I have no idea what they do and I don't remember when I applied but it sounds really impressive doesn't it?!

I was actually planning to take a couple of classes in the summer to catch up b/c I'm behind 2.5 credits, but if I get this...screw summerschool!

I'm a little disoriented right now...Here's my lame attempt at a haiku

Been at work since three
Working me like a damn horse
I'm a human too!

This was supposed to be a part-time job dammit. This is not what I signed up for. Shit, they tricked me.

If I haven't already convinced you that my family is nuts, this might do it...my little brother Ismail just asked me if I was smoking 'wheat'.

Yes, Ismail. I'm high on wheat. What can I say? I couldn't resist that dang wheat!

This is me contemplating whether or not I should drop some stupid class I decided to take this semester...
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To drop or not to drop: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous professors,
Or to take arms against a sea of assignments,
And by opposing end them. To quit, to sleep-
Much more-and by a sleep to say we end
The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks
That my brain is heir to! 'Tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To quit, to sleep in-
To sleep-perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub...

(I'll stop now)
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As you can see, I have given this quite a bit of thought. The prof is nice but the topic is mind-numbingly boring...at least I was smart enough to take some cool classes (i.e. cinema and modernity and ppls of the middle east...)

"Cheers"

P.S. I'm a closet Shakespeare fan...shhhhhh don't tell anybody!

Me: *sigh* how come my family and friends don't visit my blog

Myself: what makes you think they don't visit

Me: 'cause no one signs my 'flooble' anymore

Myself: maybe they're just shy

Me: ha! that's a good one!

Myself: i bet it's 'cause they don't really like you

Me: oh, shut up, that can't be it...

Myself: maybe they're just not the internet sort of people?

Me: I think you're right. that's it. my friends hardly know what the internet is. they're not too bright you know what I mean?

Myself: yeah, that's the spirit! now go make me a sandwich, i'm hungry

Me: why don't you get off your ass and make it yourself?

Myself: why don't you come and make me?

I: stop talking to yourself, you're acting crazy.

Me and Myself: SHUT UP!

I: ok.
.......................................................

hey people, sign my flooble when you pass by will ya? just so that I know you came. otherwise, I might have to resort to talking to myself on there too...and I don't think any of you want that...or do you?

Oops, I did it again...sort of.

This year is starting out kind of bumpy. I think I'm losing it, for real.

Yesterday, I (thought) I had my Cinema and Modernity English class from 12 to 1. I got up, got ready and watched some TV. I even called a classmate to let 'em know to save me a seat in the unlikely event that I ran late.

I left the house around 11.00 so I could get to school early and take care of some paperwork at the registrar's office. The line-up was horrendous as usual and I finished 12.00 on the dot. I ran to the classroom (yes I checked earlier to make sure I had the right classroom) and was surprised to find the room almost empty. That's very unusual I thought, since the class size exceeds 175 students.

I sat down and waited for a bit more, and finally people started trickling in. But something was strange. Everyone looked different, the class met once before on Monday, and this crowd of people coming in were completely different. I asked the person who took a seat next to me what class this was and they told me it was calculus. CALCULUS??!?!

By now I was freaking out. I stumbled out of the classroom like a mad woman and I made a desperate call to my classmate and when she answered. All I could say was..."where is the class? where are you guys" She told me that the prof never showed up, they waited for a whole hour almost and he never showed. I thought, how could you wait a whole hour, it's only 10 after 12. And she told me that the class was supposed to start at 11....NOT 12 like I thought!

Ha! But the prof made the same mistake! Which is the only reason that I didn't smack my self upside the head for being so stupid...again.

But something good came out of my stupidity at least. At the registrar's office, I ran into Vanika, a good friend I met in summer school way back in Grade 11. She told me she got accepted to a medical school in the Caribbean! So proud, I am. Lucky girl.

P.S. it was mighty cold out today. poor homeless people, I couldn't stand being out there for five minutes (honestly it was COLD) I wonder how those sleeping outside made it through the night?

I'ts so cold outside!! I wanna cry

This morning I woke up late (because I spent half the night nearly coughing out my lungs) I woke up at 10.30 and I had a class a 11.00.

This is a little rundown of this morning's events which lead me to conclude that I'm an idiot...

10.30 woke up, saw the time and bolted quickely out of bed
10.33 had breakfast (scrambled eggs, they were very tasty)
10.37 took a quick shower and got ready
10.50 ran out of the house
10.56 made to the campus (it pays off to live close to school)
11.00 found my class, took a seat and was so proud of myself
11.03 waiting for the prof to start. The prof was different, not the one that's taught the course for the past two years (clue #1 that something wasn't right...)
11.05 still waiting. looking around the room, it was a small room. noticed something different about the students and I didn't recognize anyone (clue #2)
11.07 still waiting. noticed the students around me talking about strange stuff (clue #3)
11.10 the prof finally starts. Introduces herself and starts talking about something I didn't fully understand and that I've never heard of (clue #4)
11.12 still struggling to understand what the heck the prof is saying
11.15 I'd had enough and I ask the girl next to me what class this was. the people who heard me started snickering and I feel my face heat up. I don't know what the girl said, but I knew that I wasn't where I was supposed to be
11.15 I leave the room feeling so pissed off at myself
11.20 found the room where my class was, and went in. couldn't find a seat so I had to stand for almost two hours.

Yep, I'm a dork, I know. I made that huge effort to be on time, only to be late anyways 'cause I'm too stupid to read the room number. I found out later in the day that I was in a class called "Foundations of Epidemiology" and I was supposed to be in "Peoples of the Middle East."

Note that this is not the first time I did this. Last year, after pulling an (almost) all-nighter, I sat in a class that I wasn't supposed to be in, but this time I was bright enough to get the hint the second the prof opened his mouth.

I'm back home now. After leaving class at 1, had some pizza and I went to work until 6. I didn't do much....I usually don't. I honestly have no idea what I'm getting paid for.

My dinner: a bottle of water,microwaveable oatmeal, and 2 twinkies...nice!

It was +12 today(celcius)...in January....in CANADA. IN JANUARY!! If that doesn't raise eyebrows, I don't know what will. And tomorrow we're supposedly going to get a lot of snow.

That's pretty freaky.

me so sick...me so very, very sick

I can barely breathe, my body aches, my head is pounding and I feel extremely nauseous. If only I could sleep and put myself out of my misery!

I think I'm getting the stupid flu...dang, why didn't I get the flu shot!